Saturday, May 8, 2010
I AM a child of God, a woman, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a social worker, a young women's leader. These descriptions of myself are part of my core being and part of the roles that I take most seriously. But, the list can go on and on. I AM compassionate, I AM a good cook, I AM an impulse shopper (hey, it can't ALL be positive, right!?!) Lately I have been expanding who I think I AM to areas that have always been foreign to me. I AM a woman with SHORT hair (and I love it!). I AM a runner (I ran 10.5 miles today withoutstoppingbytheway!) Even just a few short months ago I would not have identified myself as someone with short hair or as a runner. But that is what is so cool about identity. YOU control who and what you want to be (aside from the few definitives such as being a child of God and your gender). It is never too late to shape who you are and break out of the mold of who you have always been. I like the newer version of me. Shorter hair suits my busy lifestyle as a mother of 3 small children. I think I always thought I'd have long hair (and most likely I will grow it back at some point...I know Blaine would like that) but for now, this is what is working for me. And running? I started with the goal to run a 10K this month, which I will do on Memorial Day. But I've already moved on to the goal of running a half marathon on September 18th (anyone want to join me?). Dare I say it? I actually ENJOY running now. Hmmmm.
When I struggled for years with infertility, it became a familiar habit to rag on my body. I felt like it had betrayed me on the most intimate level. I worked through those feelings of betrayal and started reclaiming my love and appreciation for my God-given body a few years ago. Then I became pregnant and experienced the miracle of what a body can do on a whole new level. Now I want to continue to use this body that I have to do things that I never knew were possible for me...such as running far and running fast. It feels great. I don't always treat it well (like eating half a bag of chocolate chips as if it were air-popped popcorn...and it gets worse...but, let's not turn this into a full-fledged confessional). However, I am working on it and realizing that mind over matter goes a long way. After all, I AM a strong woman who can achieve my goals if I set my mind to it.
Posted by Tirsa at 8:51 PM